Friends...

From time to time I think all of the people that have come in and out of my life.. Some good, Some bad... but it never really mattered.. they were there and I have learned lessons from all of them...

I have Some Amazing Friends surrounding me right now that need a huge shout out!! They are filling my life with happiness and joy... I am so blessed... I love my friends..

I am such a mess some times and I'm such a huge contradiction.. I want this and that, then I don't.. who knows what the next day will bring with me.... one of my best friends said today that drama follows me around... and she'd be right... my life is crazy, hectic, wild... but with that said having my friends to lean on makes everything seem to fall back into place!!!


Ok enough of my sappiness..... check out the photo that one of these above mentioned friends took of me today, Angie is an amazing photographer and and even more amazing friend!!! it's so cool I love this pic!!!

Finally some time...

It's been so long since I've had some time to just sit in front of the computer, I have barely been on myspace or facebook, heck, last time i logged into my email i had 70 emails to read, and very few of them were spam...

I have been so incredibly busy with work and the kids ... and spending time with Big Randy at the hospital. For those of you who do not know what happened, we found out the hard way that he has colon cancer, He had a lemon size tumor constricting his colon and lower intestine. He had emergency surgery a week and a half ago... He is doing well, the recovery is a slow process as he was cut open from breastbone to pelvic bone, they had to remove 10 inches of his colon and intestine, then they pulled the rest of the intestine down and reattached it to the colon....and were waiting to find out when he starts chemo for the spots in his liver.

Definitely a life changing situation and all we can do is hope for the best, hope that he regains full function of his bowels, and that the rest of the cancer doesn't take him from us. He is the Rock that holds our family together and we would be lost without him. I cant even think about that....

He is still in the acute care unit, but like i said he is doing better, they finally removed his NG tubes and we can sit and talk with him. We love him so much!!!!


This is the first experience our boys have ever had with a family member in the hospital, they were too young to remember when i lost my grandparents, it's so hard for them to understand what's happening..

I wish that there was more that i could do... I hate siting around feeling useless, I have such a need to fix everything...

A new year...

Wow it's been a long time since I has moment to sit and write about anything. Let's see.. we had a good Christmas, the kids made out as usual, new year's was fun and full of excitement, apparently a bottle of wine is too much for me to drink and results in a nice little hangover... won't be doing that again. My Lil Bro Erik came and stayed with us for two weeks during the holidays and all I have to say is that well, he's not so Lil anymore, and there's just somethings a sister could live without hearing. Despite that, I am so proud of the man that he has become.

Work is work as usual, busy, trying.... I still need to figure out what I want to do with my life..... Being a stay at home mom is not an option right now (that's all I really want to do) I just miss being happy, I am missing out on so much, my little boys are growing up so fast and even though I want them to wait for me to get home before they do it, they wont. So each day there is a new story or experience that they have had and all i get to do is experience it second hand... I miss my babies...

Oh wait that's right there not babies anymore, My oldest will be 10 in a few days... 10 years old already!!!! Nolan turns 7 two weeks later and Caden will be 6 in a few months. UNBELIEVABLE!!!

Well, I am happy to report that my marriage is still going strong and everyday my love is growing stronger, Randy is an amazing husband, I couldn't ask for more!