Life..

So life is... as always frustrating, annoying, overwhelming, slightly ironic and so much Fun!!! yes that is Fun with a capital F !!!
You see as long as there are crazy days to deal with and a million things going on, when you actually get a break, you get to see and really appreciate the little things... and the people!!! I love the people that in my life my right now, they are so accepting, so motivating, and just genuinely good people that truly care about everyone.

To my husband,
When I don't want to deal with my life, I cant stand going to work or doing one more load of laundry, When I'm completely sad over life circumstances, you know just the right thing to do.. The fact that you went out and got me the new book by Nelson Demille (one of my fave authors) Just so that I can escape, shows me that you really do understand exactly what I need and that you care so much about me... I absolutely love you for that!! Oh and I love the book too!

To Claudia,
You Are Freaking Awesome!!! So Thank you for taking me to "Malibu" this week, and for breakfast burritos and doughnuts, You know just what I need and when I need it!!! Oh and thank you for allowing me to steal Ethan from you...He warms my heart and ruins my clothes!!! What more could a girl ask for!!!

Grandpa Lennartz

One of the best men on earth left us today, He went to Heaven to be with his wife... I will forever hold in my heart and memories all of the love My Grandparents gave us, all of the afternoons after school having an ice cream cone on their front porch, my Grandma combing my hair after my bath, our Grandpa reading to us and playing hop-scotch with us... My grandparents were the glue that held our family together, the rock that I leaned on in times of crisis.. I could just go on forever talking about what wonderful people they were...

I wish they were both still with us, I wish that I wasn't so selfish and and that I didn't still need them so badly...

I know that Grandpa is in a better place now, and I'm so happy that he's with Grandma again!!!

There is nothing I can do to make him come back, There are no words I can say, that can replace the words we long to hear,
There are no answer's they can give, that will satisfy our questions, There is not another soul you can introduce me to that will ever replace his And, there is no love you can offer that will ever replace the love we shared
You can not promise that my broken heart will ever be complete, I will not say it could have been worse, I will not deny it was a tragedy, I will not lie and tell myself that he will come back because He never really left
I do know that he hears me when I speak, I will know that he loves me no matter the distance I will not deny he is in a better place And, I will believe that he is waiting to greet us someday
He is every step we take, He is in everything we do, He is the air we breathe, He is every beat of our hearts
" He is like the wind. We can not see him...but we will always feel him"

I'm a mess..

I have been an absolute mess today, I am an emotional wreck and hyper-sensitive. For No reason that I can fathom..
No, it's not that time of the month, no where near it... nothing tragic has happened..yet here I find myself for the up-tenth time today in tears over nothing!!! It's driving me crazy!!!
Just thought I'd share! :..(

Parent Teacher Conference Night

So, with all of the normal anxiety and frustration of having to cram 3 conference's in one night, finding a babysitter so I can make it through all of them... Trying to remember what teacher said what about which kid so that I can relay the info to their dad and grandparent's etc... I MADE IT THROUGH UNSCATHED!!!

Having 3 kids, 1 with disabilities no less, this was no small task, The typical is 2 basic meetings of this kid is at the 80Th percentile, oh, this one is in my top readers group, yada yada, No big deal!!
Then there's the last one, were having trouble with this, we need to work on that, he's not doing so good here, there's room for improvement in this area, behavior, behavior, behavior.....

Tonight however started off with the usual the boys are all doing great academically, and it ended with, We have had so much improvement, he is doing great with this, he is a controlling his bad behavior, he is maturing and growing into such a great peer and helper in the class, everything was positive, or improving!!!! I am so proud!!!!

So to all of the other mother's out there with kids with disabilities, even those without..keep up the hard work, one day we turn around and it truly has paid off, all the struggles and doubt eventually give way to ..... well i can't exactly put in to words how if feel, blessed, happy, relived, proud....I just feel like all the day to day struggles are worth it, because the little boy that everyone said would never be able to maintain in mainstream school has flourished, he is doing great and I couldn't be more proud!!!!

Mrs. Wright

Yeah!! Hooray For me!! I'm a wifey!!! It only took 10 years, 3 kids, a world of Ups and Downs and so much more!!! LOL LOL For those of you that know me and are reading this you totally understand what I'm saying... I love Randy so much and I truly feel as we have been married for years, there is no Man on earth that I would rather be with. He is such a great guy, When he's not driving me CRAZY!!!!

It might have taken longer than I wanted to make it official....

Funny thing is that it doesn't really matter now, yeah he is my husband but than again he always has been. My little piece of paper, my "proof" of our love really holds no value to me. I love him just as much as I did before, Well I take that back, I love him more... He so selflessly gave me what I've wanted so badly for so long, he set aside his own doubts and everything that he was against just to make me Happy, Mr. "I will never get married" not only said his vow's with a smile on his face but he did so willingly!!!!
(no I did not have to drag him to the alter kicking and screaming!!!)

I love him for loving me that much!!! I love my Husband!!!! I am the luckiest Wife in the world!!!